Saturday, May 5, 2012

What do you see now about your past?

Dark or light?

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

It's funny when my
heart beats really fast
when i'm chatting with you.
I can be really weird at times.
Lost in thoughts and dreams.

It is not easy being a human that has to go through shits around.
Living in denial.

I can look strong from the outside,
what about the inside?

I'm not that weak after all
but there is a limit to everything

Sometimes or perhaps most of the times I
really don't know what to do.

Moving on is just a simple sentence
but definitely ain't easy at all.

Things i've gone through in my life,
thing i've lost.

Lost the people that I loved dearly.

But

Those time are definitely over.

Not that I gave up on finding them back again,
I just don't want to let it ruin my life.

I managed to go through life without them.
Weren't easy at all but heck yea.

We can't just erase people that's been
with us since an infant.

Anyway,

Back to what I wanted
to write about.

Life has been fairly good to me.
Totally thank God for that!

The main topic is actually about
a girl.

I am so in love with her that I
always thought about her every day and night.

It's been for close to 2 years?

Our status?

Don't ask.

We actually didn't contact for about a year
due to some emotional times we used to had.

Finally we kept in touch,
honestly it was pretty awkward.

But the feelings for her still remain
though it has been quite sometime.

Things are pretty smooth
I guess?

I actually don't know if our stories continue
or it ends here.

I am confuse.

lol

Anyway.

I obviously wish to be with her,
but time will tell.

And I wouldn't want to
use force for us to be together
or not.

But as I grow, I control my
emotions way better than before.

Effect of growing up eh?
Hehe.

Anyway people,
you may want them to be with you.

But if they don't want,don't force.
Forcing won't prove anything.

You may not give up,
but there are limits you know.

Don't kill yourself over this,
you still have your own life to go on.

Your on happy live to move along!

Cheers!

P.S. Dear you, 
I do really want to talk to you
but I just don't know how.
lol.
Silly me right?

P.S.S. I miss you alot!  =(

P.S.S.S. Remember to start 
your day with a smile!  =)

Monday, April 16, 2012

Yeah, I used to have this anger problem.
But I've managed it pretty well already.

Dear you,
You know who you are.
I don't know if you really don't care,
or you're letting your ego to overshadow yourself,
OR you're just lying to yourself.
Wake up please?

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Been skipping breakfast for days.
That is damn unhealthy!

Monday, April 9, 2012

So hard to get her off my mind.
I'm still stupid enough to hope things work out between us.

So called moving on eh?

Saturday, April 7, 2012

I guess it's time to look for 
another fish in the wide sea?

No point clinging onto a fish
 that is impossible to catch?

Tried waiting, was hoping for a miracle.
But, nothing happened.

Patient won't do anything I guess,
 I don't even know what's her feeling for me now.

Moreover, it's been far too long.

Anyway, few of my friends tried to 
match make me with this girl.

I find her pretty adorable,
sweet and sociable.

Can't really describe more about her though,
barely even know her.

lol.

I think it is time to move on.

Love can be really confusing.
One side, you would do anything to be with her but I hate forcing.
On the other side, waiting is pointless because you don't know what is her feeling for you.

Perhaps, just move on?

Friday, April 6, 2012


Currently in love with this song...

Listen...

=)

Saturday, March 31, 2012

This is what my friends thinks I need now


Asked them to change the group name and some JACKoon changed it to...


Very sweet of them right...

Friday, March 30, 2012

I

Miss

You


...

But...


Wednesday, March 28, 2012

We're currently in an awkward terms.

I don't want to ignore you but
there's a reason why I try not to start a conversation with you.

I just want to keep myself away from thinking too much about us.

Hmmms?

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Life's been decently good I guess?

After the incident,
I actually managed to handle my emotion!

One point to that!

And yea I do feel down at times but
i'll try not to let it stop me from going on with my life.


It don't mean if we're not close anymore means we don't care.
We care because we just can't help it.


Anyway people!
Don't be led down by some emotional incident.

If it's for you, it's for you.
Else, just wait! It'll come!

=)

Though you might really really like them a lot,
some things can't be forced.

=)

Cheers!


Saturday, March 24, 2012

The Adventure of Marcia

I haven't really talk about my dog in this blog right?

My family kinda bought a puppy and she's been with us for about 7 months now.

Her name, Marcia. =)

 
This was when we first brought her back. She was so terrified, she hid under the cupboard!

 
This was after a few days.

 
That's uhm, her size. I was hoping for a bigger one because I like big dogs...=|

 
This is her...compound?

 
Sometimes when she gets naughty, I kinda erm...punish her this way? This is not an animal abuse okay! She wasn't hurt! In fact, she looks really comfortable there! O.O

 
Kinda lucky that I managed to capture this picture! Adorable much? =)

 
I LOVE THIS PICTURE! The lighting and the focus! And it's a compact camera! ;)

 
Just look at her size T.T. That Golden Retriever belongs to my uncle and that little one is my...

 
...hero? But I still love her lots! =)

 
Her size might look normal now but as she grow, she grows longer instead. And that short legs. She's like a sausage dog! But still super athletic!

Oh yeah, she went hiking when she was only like 3 months old!

 
Dogs day out! She's 5 month old that time.

 
Adorable aight!

Let me show you some of her sleeping postures!

 
She looks really cute here right?! But...

 
...Not This...

 
And definitely not this!

Continue!

 
This was her day out at Desa Park City, look how much fun she had!

 
Lots of people are jealous of her huge ears, d'awwww! =P

 
She's sleeping like a boss! That's my blanket and pillow, give me back you bitch! =P

If you ever wonder what breed she is, she's a mix Yorkshire Terrier and Schnaunzer.
People call em' Snorkie!

Anyway, that's about it!

Good night!

=)

Friday, March 23, 2012

Went Taman Desa Park today for basketball,
too bad the lights were off so Michelle and I decided to jog.

Jog for a round 
and later sprint another round 
and later jog another 
and after that I went punctured.

Depressing!

Anyway it was one chilly night!
Loves the gang but not all were there.

Right time to actually chill out because it calms me from life.

=)

And someone commented about me being too loyal.

*Ignores*

Hehe =)

 
Carolyn and Michelle, the emo gang =P

 
Jack, the smoker. If you know him, encourage him to stop smoking kay? =D

 
Daniel, the horniest guy in the gang. Beware people! =)

 
Me? On the right =)

 
Michelle was changing in my car and sweet enough to give me her jeans but unfortunately I can't fit.

Anyway, it was a nice night out.

Nothing much though but

it was something to cool myself down.

=)

Night people!

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Someone save me from Multimedia programming! T.T

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

I don't know what to feel...

But yea, it certainly lightened me.

=)

What's next?

Life!
I'm 15 minutes late and my eyes are still closing.

-_-

Good Morning.

Anyway!

I saw this in a picture today in Facebook,
'Sometimes, a hug is all you need to make you feel better.'.

And i'm giving away free hugs! =)

And only applicable to ladies! =D
Erm..

I was suppose to sleep early because i'm having a 8 a.m. class later

but

I just can't at the moment.

I've been given the time to learn about my life and myself.

I've seen so much that sometimes I felt really ashamed to be that kinda person.

Somehow it turns out to be more obvious as we grow?

Now I see myself, I realized I became more patient in matters of life.

Not entirely perfect, sometimes I do react if some shit is going on but heck yea, nobody's perfect right?

=)

I've learnt not to force too.

I felt alot of difference recently or maybe starting this year.

It's great if you actually notice how your worse side turns better?

Anyway people, no one is perfect. You can changed yourself to be a better person. Don't be fooled by the imperfection in yourself, you yourself can brace yourself to be a better person!

=)

Nights!

P.S. If you have a shitty past, don't yield to them and let
them destroy your future. You still have a chance to live you know.

=)

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Anyway,

I'm kind of addicted to 'I Won't Give Up' by Jason Mraz.

Learnt the song in guitar and it feels awesome playing it!

Though i'm playing power chord all the way...

Anyway, the feeling that occurred while playing that song is just indescribable!

=)
Was hungry so I fried myself 2 hash browns.

Didn't defrost it,

pan was suckie because it sticks like some melted sweet.

Ended up eating the hash brown cold.

T.T

Depressing.

lol

Totally spoil my mood for supper!

And

Now my tummy is feeling awkward.

='|
Super sleepy today...

Oh wells...

Should have reminded myself that i'm having a 8 a.m. class...

ish!

lol

=|

Monday, March 19, 2012

Ba dum tsk! Here is :-

Jacob Tan!

Super happy for him now! May you 2 live awesome and happy alright! =D

D'awww if only i've recorded the whole scene, it was super funny!

D'awww look at them! =)

Another new member in the family =')

I think my eldest brother wants hairy boobies? =|

Anyway, a big congratulations to you two! Through tough times and obstacles, you two made it through till today! Super happy for you two!

=')

No, no, i'm not tearing up =')
I don't know why but i'm feeling
really free after last night!

Finally, the relief!

=)

I'm not gonna expect much.
I'll just be happy.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Imagine you being so in love with this person,
but things didn't work out.
Then you 2 didn't contact each another for long.

Suddenly,

you 2 had this little chat after so long.

How would you feel?

I felt awkward because I know I actually
still have this strong feelings for her.



If only there's a second chance?

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Regarding the previous post,
Things went...erm...
I don't know...
At least I tried? Heh.

Anyway,

Happy Chinese New Year everybody!
May you prosper well throughout the year and enjoy your holidays!
May Ang Paos won't stop flowing throughout the CNY week!
Amen! LOL!

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Releasing what's trapped

Hoolaa people.
Sister is back from Australia for a month!
Super happy to see her again!
Welcome back sister!

Here's the main thing.
I finally realize what has been troubling my heart.
I read my heart and it told me everything.
I really need to do something to make myself feel better.

So yea, I want to make amend.
Started the first move.
Now i'm just waiting for a reply.

Finger's crossed that it'll turn out good.

Toodles!


Sunday, January 1, 2012

Goodbye 2011 and Hello 2012!

I'm finally back to blogging!
Miss me?!
Been months!

Anyway,

I had been thinking about it throughout the year 2011 and what is that 'it'? Please continue reading to find out!

Sincerely,
Me.

I had my reasons why I shut my blog for long. Last year was good but there were something that totally, I wouldn't call it ruin or destroy. Can't really describe it in words, some feelings are just indescribable. But yea, it totally led me down in my relationship life.

I swore I was in love but maybe because I was too stupid and silly, I actually literally killed myself real hard inside. Truthfully I still have feelings for her but I guess what's done is done.

It's been quite long, almost a year now.

I had an awesome New Year's Eve celebration with a group of favorite people today. One of them kinda told me about her being in a relationship. It kinda struck me but I felt proud because I managed to poker face. I took the challenge not to remind myself about her, it was a tough war but I managed to conquer it a little. Hehe.

I'm sure you readers can pick up the reason why I shut my blog already right? Hehe.

So here's what i've been thinking.

I don't really care and i'm actually really tired of trying to go for someone real bad. So yea, when it comes it comes. I might be a little flirtatious though but that doesn't mean i'm trying to go after you.

I have my reasons why I don't really care because i've been single all my life and I guess i just got too used to being single. Moreover i'm glad I have my family and friends that can spark up my life and make it more adventurous! Thanks guys for existing. lol. Thank God for them too!

So here it is, 2012. I wish this year will actually lighten up this area of my life. A bad wish? Maybe.

It's really late though, it's 4.45 AM!

Before ending this post, I would totally love to wish you all a HAPPY NEW YEAR! Have a blessed one and my best wish to you all!